Ali Walks Around

Why do I always speed up my life when I’m excited about things?

Why do I lose contact with my soul

and refuse to make myself a nice meal

or do my routines

or call my friends

when I’m excited about something I’m working on?

It’s different when I’m at a job

and people are demanding too much of me

without respect or care

and I lose contact with myself.

That is exploitation.

But when I’m doing a personal project,

I float away from my body

into this other consciousness

that is not connected to my Self.

I can’t hear my body.

I can’t feel my organs working

or my eyes blinking

or my foot tapping

or my mouth watering.

When this happens, my ego is exploiting my body

in order to give it immediate satisfaction,

even if it is for my pride and joy.

I find so much joy in writing poems.

They bring me purpose.

But even those bring me out of myself.

When I edit my website or try to pick out pictures for each poem,

I lose touch with myself

because I get too excited

and float away.

Life’s challenge is to not let yourself float away.

To not speed up for exploitation

just as equally

as you should not let yourself speed up

for things you’re only doing for yourself.

They are just as equally disembodying.

Think of the things you are most excited to do today

and save them for tomorrow.

Heal yourself today.

Let yourself rest, eat, enjoy, breathe.

Peace is never in a hurry.